What are you passionate about in this life ?

My perspective on life is on a different level . I'm that person that can go to the beach at night and just sit there, close my eyes and enjoy the breeze hitting my face , hear the ocean waves hit the shore . Its me against the world . Everything about life is so beautiful to me its like "ART " how everything has been created so beautifully . I want to grow up and have the best of everything , have a perfect relationship , have a job that i can wake up in the morning and enjoy what i love to do  , not worrying about if i have money to pay my next bill . I want to have a "MAN" who treats me like "WOMAN" treats me with respect and we can share ideas , someone who takes the very best out of you , someone who believes in you and supports you and challenges you to become a better person in life , i want a husband who dreams big and i can be that person to help him achieve his dreams .I want to be that older sister that my siblings look up to and i want them to never back down because i never did . I want to be that go to person when my family needs me and ill be right there to give a helping hand. I want to wake up every morning and know every struggle and every life experience has lead me to this moment in life. I read a quote in the syllabus given to us for our Coping with Life and Death class saying

To laugh often and love much ; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends ; to appreciate beauty ; to find the best in others ; to give of one's self ; to leave the world a bit better ; whether by a healthy child , a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation ; to know one life had breathed easier because you have lived - this is to have succeeded. 

                                             Ralph Waldo Emerson

This is what i'm passionate about , doing what ever it takes to live a happy and beautiful life, to be successful and to know i did it and had people who truly care for me help be where i want to be .

I always procrastinate I've been that person for a long time and college has taught me to change my ways because it just holds me back and never get nothing done . I feel like i need to disconnect myself from the world , i'm such a social butterfly and everything and anything can distract me . I'm teaching myself to always do things on time and be responsible with anything i do. I'm just trying to be on top of  anything that will bring me closer to my dream. My dad told me " Now that your doing good , the devil will try to bring you down ten times harder" . 

I will continue growing as a person mentally and even though i'm nineteen years of age , im still learning my right from wrongs .In three months hopefully i would accomplish my first semester of college , i'm hoping i do alright at least , school has been stressful trying keep a flexible time and be on top of my school work, but this is a huge step i need to reach my goals . 

"When you can create enduring success not because you are perfect or lucky but because you have the courage to do what matters to you" (pg 2)